For weeks Sri Nag
lay immobile in the dark recesses of the temple. Slowly his bruises
healed and his ribs mended. But still he lay quietly indoors or in
the grasses close by the temple. The villagers, thinking him to be
dead, now walked carelessly across his field. It was all he could do
to repress the flame of his anger, to control the instant flexing of
his muscles, the coiling of his body, the spring toward the
trespassers, the strike. He would force himself to lie still,
unnoticed, and to say his mantra out loud, his voice like the
whisper of the wind.
Slowly the urge to
give chase became less compelling, and slowly, also, his taste for
mice and frogs left him. Simultaneously, almost without conscious
thought on his part, the sense that the field was his exclusive
hunting ground lost its once gripping possession of him. He had no
desire to hunt; what, then, was a hunting ground? Who, then, were
trespassers? And why, then, did it matter that villagers came and
went? Toward whom was he once so angry? The-field began to take on a
different aspect for him. It was no longer his; it was a beautiful
place that he shared with its other life a life that seemed to be
growing more and more exuberant. Gradually his depression lifted.
But eating only fruit and roots, he grew ever more thin and
depleted. He was too weak to shed his dull and tattered skin; nor
did it feel too tight, for recently his body had not grown. Thus the
months passed. He lay in the temple and sometimes outside in the
sun, repeating his mantra, remembering the sadhu, driving all other
thoughts from his mind. Indeed, those thoughts had quieted of
themselves.
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