After a
more thorough study of Vedanta I soon learned that few Vedantins study the Vedas or see in
them the depth of wisdom that Aurobindo did and which seemed so natural to me. Becoming a
Vedic person took me to another place than most Vedantins, who mainly reject the Vedas as
only of ritualistic value. I saw the Vedas as adding a symbolic or mantric level of
knowledge to Vedanta.Eventually this dimension of Vedic mantras
became more interesting than Vedantic logic or inquiry. It was like entering into another
time, another state of mind, a different language and a different humanity. The
philosophical side of my mind gradually receded in favor of a Vedic mantric approach.
I had to break through my attachment to the sophisticated philosophical
dialectic of Vedanta and Buddhism in order to appreciate the primeval images of the older
Vedas. This was perhaps as difficult and radical a change as moving from a western
intellectual view to that of yogic spirituality. It was also one in which I found myself
even more alone.