|I doubt that
God was informed that the church changed his laws. But that came long after I left the
church. Of course there were the usual childhood activities, with sports in school and the
general issues of growing up that brought about their own joys and stresses, but the
Catholic religion loomed behind with its strange doctrines, threats and demands, spoiling
the innocence and happiness of childhood. No doubt it has done this for many children
throughout the world, who then as adults feel compelled to perpetuate the same abuse on
their own children in the name of becoming good Christians.
Another question I had was, if belief in Jesus and following the ways of the
church guaranteed that one would go to heaven, why should one make any effort beyond it?
What was the need for any extreme piety or saintliness? The nuns told me two things. First
the usual purgatory idea, that even minor sins had great punishments, though not in hell.
Second, if one was particularly good one got a bigger house in heaven, with saints having
great mansions. I wasnt quite certain what a house in heaven might be, and the whole
thing seemed suspicious.
And what would one do for eternity in heaven, which sounded
like a glorification of life on earth? I always
pondered about things and never merely accepted them at face value. I tried to figure out
why something is so and what it really means. As a child I began to think about religion