Both are one - personal experience
28. Therefore, when we begin to describe the difference between the saguna and the nirguna worshipper, it
becomes difficult. In the end, saguna and nirguna become one. Thourgh the stream of bhakti springs from the
saguna, it reaches nirguna in the end. Here is an old story. I had gone to Vaikom
to observe the Satyagraha there. I remembered the geographical fact that Shankaracharya's birth place was on the border of
Malabar. I had a feeling that Shankara's
village, Kaladi, was somewhere near. I asked the Malayali gentleman who
accompanied me. He said, "It is some 10 or 12 miles from here.
Do you want to go there?" I said I did not. I was
going to see the Satyagraha in progress, and it did not seem proper to go
elsewhere. So on that occasion I did not go to that village. Even now it seems to me that I was right in not going there then. But that night, when I went
to bed, that village of Kaladi and the image of Shankaracharya stood before my
eyes again and again. I could not sleep. That experience is still with
me, as fresh today as it was then. Again and again that night, I thought
of Shankaracharya - of power of his jnana, his divine certitude in
advaita, the extraordinary glowing vairagya; non-attachment, which convinced
him that samsara, this phenomenal life was all false, of the majesty of
his language and the boundless help I have received from him.
All night-long these images stood before me. Then I
realized how nirguna is filled to the brim with saguna. Even seeing him face to
face would not have evoked such love. Even nirguna is filled with saguna.
For the most part, I do not write letters to friends to inquire about
their welfare. But even when I do not write to a friend, the thought of him is ever present, it fills my
mind. Thus, saguna lies hidden in nirguna. Saguna and nirguna are indeed one. Placing an image
before us and worshipping it with visible outward service on one hand, and on the other, being constantly concerned inwardly
with the world's welfare, while performing no outward acts of worship - both these have the same
worth and value.
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